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Karutan yang akan aku semburkan ini adalah diari mainan minda yang penuh dengan carutan harian serta berkalibrasi dengan kehidupanku yang penuh dengan teka teki…

Whats life without challenges? Whats life without bravery? Whats life without struggle? Whats life without adventures? Whats life without pain and anger? Sorrow and death? Curse and comments? Its nothing… all the bad thing that we think is holding us down are actually the spice of life… without them life would just be full of boredom and shitty stuff… uh uh uh uh… even love is not all good rite? Suffering is one of the challenges we have to go through… and yet the outcome of love is so damn beautiful… u can learn a lot from love… it hurts u, kicks u in the face and then kiss and makes love with you… i love my baby gurl… more than anything in the whole wide world… shes my strength, my power and my aspiration… tapi dier sangat busyukk dan gomoxx! kakakaka…

Intan has a new hobby now… not actually new… dah dekat 4-5 months dier take up rock climbing… uh uh uh uh… she’s a fast learner… determined… tapi satu jer… keberanian dier masih terbatas… uh uh uh uh… but shes a gurl, thats expectable… me? rock climbing? nahhhhhh… thanks but no thanks… kakakaka…  kalau teman dier or belay dier xper… skang dah semakin mantap dah kehebatan memanjat dier…. uh uh uh uh… mesti dier bangge bace blog nih… chaiyokkk chaiyokkk…. bak kate bebudak climber, alle alle…  memule top rope jer… pastu bouldering… pastu skang dh main outdoor dah… uh uh uh uh… ade rejeki i blikan u new climbing shoes ehh gomoxxx… mmmuuuaaaahhhhhh…

Haku plak tetap la bermain paintball… main kat utan… woodsball to be exact… uh uh uh uh… designated marksman… dulu aku ade spotter… skang spotter aku dah jadik john rambo… kakakaka… name team aku Jolly Rogers… a bunch of jolly people… all fun and laughter before the game… game on tgk…. uh uh uh uh… stealthy and sneaky bastards… we operate as suppresssion and medium fire force… need to polish more on team and individual skills… pastu nk kne bli HPA tank ngan foregrip… uh uh uh uh… pastu upgrade internal… kakakakaka…

Sampai sini jer kot haku nak merapu2…. haku dah tatau ape nak tulih… keje pon banyak nih…. uh uh uh uh… haku nak tunggu album Malique kuar… OK… Lagu Aku yang Punya besh gilerrr….

Uh uh uh uh… got a new job… actually this is my third week…. wahhhhh… so fast time fly by…. tomorrow got public holiday, it has something to do with the sultan, i think its his birthday… then another public holiday on the 20th, but dunno can go holiday or not… according to my schedule i have to do something on that day… uh uh uh uh…. ant then comes christmas and followed by new year…. wanna bring my gumokksss to watch fireworks.. now where got ahh? went to klcc for Merdeka, it was so lame!! No fireworks!! ( PakLah, put fireworks la… people want to see… can send people to moon but cannot give fireworks ka? uh uh uh ) … This month is a good month for my gumokksss…. u know why arrr? Because go SALE everywhere… and she likes sales a lot… nvmind, got bigger pay now, so can spend a bit more la on her… this month only la… after that got to save money to buy a bike and gotta get married…

Happy with my new job, but not happy because have to go through traffic jam every single day.. IT SUCKS!!!! Summore other people drive like shit heads, cilok here cilok there, while at toll also want to jump que… assholess…. lucky im very civic concious.. so i wont do those kind of things.. i’ll just enjoy the ride… i’ll put on the radio luodly with my windows closed and sing like hell… uh uh uh uh… Working at uptown, so many places to eat… so many banks nearby… my life has just been easier… no need to go far2 to pay bills… uh uh uh uh… parking also not a big deal… everyday if i arrive before 845 sure can get cunnnnn parking space…. uh uh uh uh…

Work also now easier and more organised… i control every single thing and give production schedule for manila, india and singapore… they have to do what i say and when i say it has to be done… uh uh uh uh… like mini boss la now… wakakakaka… by the way, my boss now is an australian, very open and flexible… i dont have a punch card… can go lunch anytime i want… and just need to report to him… no one else from other department can say anything to me, except the HR dept… uh uh uh uh… everyone is ok la…. im the only malay…. but ok lorrr….

My boss is not here, he is either in Beijing or Singapore…. he just got promoted as the Asia Pacific Regional Manager… So now he is very busy flying here and there… uh uh uh uh…

Warrggghhhh… so sleepy…. waiting for my officemate to come and teach me sumthing… but he is busy rite now…. so nothing to do lorrr….. play2 only….

Supp peeps… yeahhhh, i know.. sorry…. i know that lots of ma peeps have been wonderiing about the existence of me… im stil alive and doing well…. uh uh uh uh… Good news peeps, im already in KL… literally! Im gonna start working @ KL next week and this means more time with ma babe ( actually we got engaged already, 10.11.07. Yeeehaaaaaa!!!!! ) and also ma peeps… uh uh uh uh. KL city here i come….

The Engagement

Alhamdulillah… everything went well… Our Rombongan consisted of 7 cars, included was my grandparents and my uncle and aunties. The date was 10.11.07, and we went to Perlis on the 9th. I literally used the whole stretch of the PLUS Highway, starting from Skudai to the last toll at the North side ( Utan Aji or something ). I drove from JB to KL and to G Semanggol, and it was continued by my trusted
driver, ubayd who is ma brother… uh uh uh uh uh.. it was too tiring for me…. Went to Padang Besar and my family went to Bukit merah for holiday…. uh uh uh uh… it was really good to see a lot of greenery a long the way…. lots of sawah and bukits and hutans far away… it was a good trip and a nice adventure… especially for redza who likes those kind of stuff…. im gonna go with redza sometime later, and take him fishing…. These are the pics…. more to come in my other post 9 when i have the time )….

Uh uh uh uh… im now engaged to my baby gurl…. Luv ya bucukkkk!!!! When r we gonna get married?  Insyaallah next year… Wish us happiness and luck in our relationship…

To ma peeps who misses me ( miss u guys tooo!!!! ) holla me if u wanna meet up.. we’ll arrange sumthing.. now i can go paintballing more frequently… uh uh uh uh.. mmuuaaxxxsssss to ma fiance and a big holla to ma peeps…. I’l be bloggin more soon… but not this week coz im busy… take care ya’ll….

Supppp peeps…. missin ya’ll… really…. i miss all of ma peeps… but i really miss my smirky lil gumoxx the most… uh uh uh uh…

What story to tell this time? hmmmm… gimme a while…

I had an accident with Intan. it wrecked her car.. farctured my right dormant hand.. one of my finger bones was fractured, i was trying to swivel the car away but it had failed… the tyres were locked ( thanks Perodua for giving such tyres as a standard feature, damn they were up right not gripping from the point of braking ) uh uh uh uh… but everything is fine now…. my hand also healed although not to the full functional state, and now i know what ubayd feels… wakakakakaka.. he had fractured his hand in the same manner too early this year.. The insurance claiming process was a breeze and everythig was settled in mere 2 and a half weeks…. fast aite?

Ramadhan is coming again… fasting month…. can i get skinnier or i’ll just be a wee bit thin before BUKA and get "fatter than yesterday" like i always do… uh uh uh uh… miss opening fast at home with ma family… miss all of my Umi’s cooking, miss the times when she had to repeatedly and angrily wake me up to take my sahur… the only person who could wake me up was Baba, my dad… just with a simple gesture… like " Amir, bangun…. ker nk Baba kejut pakai air sebaldi?" uh uh uh uh.. was that a question or a threat… anyways.. he is the only one who can wake me up from sleep….

Met a few of ma peeps and played paintball… Ali, Keros, Din, Irsyad, Panjang, Amy, and me were teamed up to fight against an unknown team… Jungle setting…. 2 teams to capture a flag… we lost but not because we were all shot down, but we were out of ammo. we played two rounds in the field b4 entering the jungle… so we were short of ammo… uh uh uh.. we wil have another session… but not knowing when it will be… nice time spent with them…

hwaarrrgggghhhhhh.. im tired.. i wanna sleep.. but im at the office… but hey.. who cares?

Aarrrggghhhhhh… another week not going back to see ma gurl makes me wanna puke and faint… i cant stand it… y? coz i miss her dearly… i really2 miss her… everytime she calls i’ll get amped up… i get excited… i get a funny feeling that tingles… especially when she does her lovely and cute "hello"…. arrrggghhhh im missin her fuckin badly… i just wanna hold her tight in my arms… i wanna kiss her hair… i wanna feel her warmth… i want her to hold me, hug me and kiss me… but every night we quarrel a bit, and i’ve found out why… it’s because that we both realize that we’re too far away from each other.. there a big huge gap physically… mmmmm… i donno what to say… i just want her to know that i feel the same way she does… the same way she misses me… the same way that she needs me by her side… mmmm… i hate this fuckin feelin… i feel empty… i feel useless… all this tension is building up inside… from work… from my baby gurl… i really miss my Umi… my Baba.. my sibs… Abil… Ubayd and redza…

Alhamdulillah, abil’s hard work is starting to pay off bit by bit… they got a few deals already… but the supplies of mussels (kupang) are limited due to the rain and waves… insyaallah everything will go fine i believe… i really hope so… she’s been struggling for the company for quite a while already… stay tough gurl.. u can do it… i really believe in you…

Ubayd in the other hand is busy with his practical training at Singgahsana Hotel… He wants to be a Chef… uh uh uh uh… go on boy… do your best… make umi and baba proud… i enjoy cooking too… thats one of the loves in my life… but its been a long time since i did that… uh uh uh uh.. i hope i havent lost my touch yet…

Next week cuti… rabu kames jemaat… wanna spend time wif everyone who misses me… my boo, ma pham and ma peeps… wanna get wasted wif em… uh uh uh uh… gonna go buy presents for redza… wanna buy baby new outfits for work, she got a new job… uh uh uh uh… congrats… mmmuuuaaaaahhhhh…

I think i wanna get a new terraquarium for ma python… the current one is too small… i saw one in Pets Wonderland OU… but theres another one yg macam screen… also nicer but a wee more expensive…. uh uh uh uh… See la how…

Uh uH uH.. luper nk include lagu yg sedang haku layani… lagu nih aku tujukan utk diri aku sendiri… kengkawan aku ( U know who U R!) and especially to Abil N Sue!!!

Spider - Dari Tulang Smpi Ke Telinga!!

PENGORBANAN BUKANLAH BUAT MENCARI MEGAH NAMA,
HANYA KAU DAMBAKAN KESUNGGUHANMU MEMBELA NASIBNYA,
WARGA TAK BERDAYA…

PERJUANGAN MULA DARI JIWA,
BIAR TERANCAM NYAWA,
PERANG YANG BERKELIP,
SEKALIPUN SEKELUMIT GENTAR,
TAKKAN KAU RASAKAN,
TAK KAU RASAKAN…

MAKIN HEBAT MAKINLAH TERPANGGIL,
MAKINLAH MEMBARA SAMPAI TELINGA…
MAKIN RUMIT MAKINLAH TERANGSANG,
MAKINLAH Teriak TELINGA SAMPAI KE TULANG…

PUTEEMOOO……
SUMEMOOO…..
LAYANMOOO…..
KUTEMOOO…..

PERJUANGAN MESTINYA JANGAN DIPANDANG SIA-SIA
BIAR DIRI SIAPAKAH ENGKAU JADI TEKA TEKI
TAK MEMBERI ERTI KESAL SECEBIS

MAKIN HEBAT MAKINLAH TERPANGGIL,
MAKINLAH MEMBARA SAMPAI TELINGA…
MAKIN RUMIT MAKINLAH TERANGSANG,
MAKINLAH TELINGA SAMPAI KE TULANG…

PUTEEMOOO……
SUMEMOOO…..
LAYANMOOO…..
KUTEMOOO…..

makin hebat makin terpanggil,
membara sampai telinga…
makin rumit makin teransang,
telinga sampai ke tulang…

INI PERJALANAN AKU BUAT SEMENTARA MENGEJAR MIMPI!!!

MAKIN HEBAT MAKINLAH TERPANGGIL,
MAKINLAH MEMBARA SAMPAI TELINGA…
MAKIN RUMIT MAKINLAH TERANGSANG,
MAKINLAH TELINGA SAMPAI KE TULANG…

PUTEEMOOO…… SUMEMOOO…..
LAYANMOOO….. KUTEMOOO…..
PUTEEMOOO…… SUMEMOOO…..
LAYANMOOO….. KUTEMOOOOOOO…..

(Lirik Nih bkn lirik yg SAH, Kalau ade silap tu maafkan ehh)

Credits to the Die Hard Fans Of Spider nyer Forumers, YOU GUYS RAWKKK!!!!

Ya a awww….. wassap2 to all ma peeps out there who’s missin me/us… uh uh uh uh… holla back… sendin ma lurve through da wire and lets lite up all the fire inside… although im not physically by ur sides (which when i am, takes a lot of space.. uh uh uh uh) i’m always in ur hearts… mmmuuuaaaahhhh to all ma peeps out there… helll yeahhhhh!! No worries, im still alive and kicking ass!! With ma sidekick of course… uh uh uh uh.. ma baby boo… kire cam bonnie and clyde arr… batman and robin ker.. pape jer la… kan kan kan…

To start today’s blog… what the hell should i write huh? mmmm… Aritu gi tolong umi jage event makan2 kat putrajaya… stall kitorang arr yg antare teramai nak mamposs…. uh uh uh uh… yer arr… bende pelik kan… KUPANG… sape yg xtau kupang tu aper nnti datang umah aku, aku kasik sample… nk bli pon ader… uh uh uh uh… nih insyaallah dpt deal besar kot.. singapore ade mintak… retailers pon ader mintak… rezeki my parents and adek2 due org tu yg x pnah kenal erti penat lelah and erti mengalah… aku giler respect kat Abil N Sue (A tribute to ma sibbs, kejayaan tu x dtg dgn senang, tp bile dh berjaye nnti korang senang la kan, rezeki ade kat memaner bil, sue… i love you guys like the waves love the beaches!!!) Aku rase puas sbb adik2 aku sumer jadi manusia… jadi orang… termasuklah aku yg x berjaye mane pon, tp yg penting aku x susahkan sesaper dan aku x susahkan mak bapak aku… To all the people who doesnt believe in me, eat ma middle finger! Ah Ah Ah Ah… aku happy… umi n baba pon dh senang… tinggal nk jage Mistah Bear Jr (Phat_Redza)… burfday dier aritu, ader ke nk mintak PS2… tu kene usehe sendiri, bkn x mampu nk blikan, nk soh dier usehe… aku nk dier ade sikap appreciate ape yg dier dapat… dapat dgn usehe dier sendiri.. titik peluh sendiri… x kire la baba bagi as reward or kumpul duit sendiri.. camtu la baba ajau aku dulu… theres no easy way to own what you want… u have to work for it… uh uh uh .. tu la yg aku pegang smpi skang… ma parents have thought me well… yg baik2 tu derang la yg ajar, yg jahat2 tu aku blajar sendiri… aku tanggung sendiri… xde kene mengene ngan derang… mmm… sambung citer redza… last2 kawtim punyer kawtim… dier mintak HotWheel nyer Set… uh uh uh uh… Si Ubayd plak tgh practical… kat SinggahSana Hotel… Dier amik cullinary arts kot kat Unitar… ingat burfday dier nk blikan set pisau.. tp cam yg dier ader tu pon dh power gilerr… uh uh uh uh… aku pon tatau nk bli aper… jadi xyah la bli… wakakakaka…

Kay boyz and gurlz… peace out.. bnyk testing nk kene buat nih…

AAArrrgggghhhhh… life really is sucking in this time…. i feel empty… and its gonna be worse next week… coz i’ll be so fucking lonely…. two of my best roommates and officemates are gone…. coz this company is soooo fucked up… and the saddest thing is, i cant do anything about it…. biyyatch… but i wont stop them from going, bcoz its their fate… mmmmm…. may all the luck in this fucking world be with them, rezeki ade kat mane2 dudes…. just search for it…

Arituh lepak ngan ubayd, dier layan citer my heart… aku x tengok sgt sbb citer tu cam jiwang heavy jer…. tp lagu dier sedap…. lagu My Heart :

Disini kau dan aku
Terbiasa bersama
Menjalani kasih sayang
Bahagia kudenganmu

Pernahkah kau menguntai
Hari paling indah
Ku ukir nama kita berdua
Disini surga kita

Bila kita mencintai yg lain
Mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
Sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah
Sayang ku akan hilang

If u love somebody
Could it be this strong
I will fight to win
Our love will conquer all
Wouldn’t risk my love
Even just one night
Our love will stay in my heart
My heart…

Baby dh dapat keter…. kelise kaler putih.. auto… dh tukau spot rim myvii sbb baby wat mejik… uh uh uh uh…. nih dh ok dh keter dier…. mmmm… syg arr kat dier… syg gilerrrr…. raye celebrations tahun nih kat JB… meriah giler… sumer adik beradik my mom raye saner…. uh uh uh uh… macam2 citer ader nih… si redza berjaya memperdayekan my dad to buy him fireworks… bnyk plak tu… sbb dier berjaye bagi 3 good reasons why my dad should buy him fireworks…. ade satu tu cam roket, besar gilerr… lawa arr…. pastu macam2 lagik arr…. pagi petang siang malam dier main mercun…. dan dier juge dgn majiknyer berjaye mengepau aku kasut baru dan baju raye walaupun dh selambak mum i belikan… uh uh uh uh… dier nyer baju raye dier pilih sendiri tahun nih… kaler purple/blue thai silk yg two tone… dier nk gak baju tu walaupon xder org lain pki baju kaler tu dlm family i… uh uh uh… pemilihan baju2 raye dier tahun nih adalah berlainan dari tahun2 sblm nih… dier lebih matang membeli dan design2 pakaian adalah very up to date dan ala2 hiphop…. sape la agaknyer idola pemakaian dier… wakakakaka….

Aku pon dh tatau nk tulih mender nih, prot tgh sakit… kapla banyak pusing…. too many things to write makes me wanna vomit… chowwzzz….

What the fuck is happenin to this world? Just got to read a friend of mine’s blog (apeq-wuz-ere.blogspots.com)…. discovered some truths about the war in Palestine. Damned, we are totally blind…. A few days ago i read an article about how StarBucks (sleazy ass muthafuckas!) are funding Zionist movements and we are actually the ones who’s supporting them by buying their F&B…. fuck them all…. they are bombing and destroying The Arabs and kicking them out from their own land… and who’s behind these jackasses? That fuckin bastard BUllSHit…. fuck em all…. But what i’m really pissed at is, what the hell is the world doing bout it? where is that org called "OIC"…. kalau setakat mengutuk dan mengecam serangan, aku pon bole….. kenape umat islam x bangkit dengan penindasan nih? Aku sedih…. pilu…. hampa…. kenape budak2 kecik yg x berdosa jadi mangse? ibu2 dibiarkan mati terseksa di jalan2 berdebu…. mendakap mayat anak2 mereke yg x berdose…. pejuang2 hizbullah yg dituduh menjadi pengganas? FUCK THOSE ASSHOLES JEWS! yahudi mmg dilaknat….. mmg cam haram…. menitis air mate hati aku yg keras nih bile tgk mayat budak 5-6 tahun dikutip dan dibersihkan utk ditanam sebagai pejuang yg mati syahid! Syahid tu bro…. mati yg paling suci… yg dijanjikan syurga…. aku btol2 sedih…. rintihan aku nih mungkin x bermakne bagi sesiape…. mmg x bole nk tolong derang…. tp tu la, aku nih no one… a nameless person which has nothing to help them… hanyalah dgn seruan pembangkitan…. AllahuAkbar!!!!!

Muhammad and his 42 year old father were trying to shelter from Israeli fire behind a small concrete block. The footage shows the father attempting to shield his son with his body, while calling and gesturing for the soldiers to cease firing. Clearly unarmed, neither father nor son posed any conceivable threat to the Israeli soldiers. Disregarding the father’s pleas for help, Israeli soldiers first shot the boy; then as his son died in his arms the father was also shot, sustaining bullet wounds to the upper thigh, pelvis, stomach, and lower leg. Later a Red Crescent ambulance driven by Bassam Al-Balbisi approached the father and son. Israeli soldiers riddled the ambulance with with bullets and killed the driver.

These are the words of my Brothers…. please read it carefully

Too Phat Feat. Akbar

Peperangan yg dilalui dunia..bagaikan tiada penghujungnya
Bila propaganda menguasai segala-gala..nan halusi setiap
Minta apa harus mencari satu hala tuju baru di jalan penuh
Berliku Apa kita akan bertemu dalam impian yg Satu
Hari ini aku di sini lagi masih tenang dalam berilusi
Masih bertarung dengan diri.ku melawan nafsu nafsi
Mana perlu ku melangkah?…mana betul dan yg mana salah?
Harus hanya rasa indah sedang itu kan memusnah?
Tunggu apa ditunggu..aku pun tidak tahu..kini semakin lesu
Beriku petunjukMu.sedar dari lamunan.mula ternampak
Jalan ..kini ku dalam barisan.ku teruskan perjuangan
Semua gerak dihitung..tidak ada yg tergantung..sedar atau tak
Langsung ..tiada yg melencong. Apa ini ku cari.harus merenung
Lagi..cuba berkali kali silap berulang lagi

A year older..hard experiences make a man bolder..a one man
Soldier lost and tryin’ to stay sober..Erasin highlights of joy inside
My life’s folder.Tryin’ to find peace through harder days and
When the nights are colder Alotta people never listen, ask to keep
Your head up..i’ve held it long enough I’m getting’ fed up
Flashin’ on the past when I led a simpler life.I’m happy with the
Progress, its change that I don’t like I was tearin’ sittin’contemplatin’ my carrier when I should be on stage with a few
Thousand kids sheerin’ turned in to the heavens.and was shown
The forgotten myth that faith and love can turn a curse into a gift if
You think you’ve hit rock bottom think about your loved ones Your
Father was a soldier at least you be a tough son//a tough one And
When times get rough, you be the rough one Money, power, respect will come

Aku amanti satu persatu..apa yg terjadi apa yg berlaku Kali iini matlamatku jitu..sinari impian harapanku telah kian lama aku mencar cari di satu hari cahaya kan
Menyinari Moga aku tidak akan sendiri lagi.dalam perjalanan
Untuk mencari erti ..

Currently the state of world.depressing
Everywhere warring and oppression
Currency is king becoming
Everybody’s obsession Capitalist with animal instinct behaviour
Wolves in sheep skin claiming to liberate and save you Far from
Saviours only contribute to death ..The magnitude of their actions
Only contribute to their wealth ..Word to Condoleezza Rice These
Kids kind of need rice..How father and son can bomb the same city
Twice..i’m mad Watch the news at home on CNN..i’m sad
World powers do as they please where and when .it’s bad Countries join a legion armed with nuclear bombs
The Only one without a bomb was most probably Saddam
Cause for alarm conspiracy theories taking lives
Aske All Mighty please guide me with the light
Cause for alarm militaries killing children in the night
Ask the All Mightly please protect them with your might

Time flies …. felt like it was january a few blinks ago, and now? Dammnnn…. it’s gonna be JULY already….. pphhhbbbrrrrttttttt….. my mind is bloated with pressure and really2 tense…. hmmmm.. when is this mind-fucking project gonna end? Im tired of working in JB… i wanna be with ma gurl…. i wanna chill with ma homies…. they’re half dead missing me …. and im really2 missing them as ever… dammnnnnn…. still remember the good old days…. when we were like brothers…. connected through a connection that has no explanation to it but as sturdy as the mountains…. hmmmm…. sorry to all ma peeps… i’ll make time for you guys kay… i’ve been busy for the past months… for ma peeps, i’ll take a day off soon just to be with you guys…. i havent met my own parents for 2-3 weeks man….. life is hard…. i miss them…. i miss my chubby brother…. my left hand, ubayd…. my sistah abil and sue( AAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHHH< MISS THEM BADLY I WANNA CRY) UMI and BABA…. uuurrrgggghhhhhh….. sorry for everything guys and gals…. the spliff mastah is fallin off track….. hmmmm… gotta get myself aligned…. it’s really hard being me….

Hmmmm… now it’s already 3 years with Babygurl… went through a lot…. ups and downs.. but were still holding on and i love her as much as i love myself… she’s a part of me that i can never ever let go… thanks gurl for putting up with my freaky behaviour and hot temperness…. huhuhuhuhu… cyg baby!!!! Baby tgh nk amik lesen memandu…. huhuhuhuhuhu…. dier terrer wat drift setempat… wakakakakaka…. cian baby i…. hmmmmm…. nnti dh dpt lesen kite gi bli kete u ehh bucukk… mmmmuuuuaaaaahhhhhhh……