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Today is a boring day at work… everyday is a boring day… i am really interested in weekends only, coz i can see my BUCUK yg masam… huhuhuhuhu… rendoo plak arr kt dier…. Tp xnak ngaku rindu kat dier sbb nanti die ckp "Muke jer ganas, tp manje…" huhuhuhu… Weekend aritu gi air terjun ngan kakak hangkat baby, iaitu Nad… ngan mamat yg agak sempoi dan selamber badak dan happening dan pening dan macam2 adaaaa…. iaitu encik OoHRasaOren…  org yg first bwk aku lepak ngan bebudak Kenarianz.com… sumer bebudak kelab aku besh, sumer2 sporting and yg paling penting ikatan ukhuwah antare kitorang kuat.. memang besh arr kengkawan aku… aku rindu arr kat kawan2 aku yg dulu… bebudak kolej aku… budak sekola teknik songai petani 2… sek tmn melati and sek ren gombak satu… aku ade sorg kwn yg still sampai skang rapat ngan aku walaupon dh banyak kali gado/masam muke.. name dier Nizam… die lagik besau drpd aku yg sebesau beruang nih (mungkinkah dier ikan paus?)… huhuhuhuhu.. sambung balik mandi songai ngan oren nad and baby bucuk… besh giler!!! Baby sampai pucat giler sbb sejuk sgt air tu… tp baby mandi gak… aku mandi jap jer… pastu wat skill kuarkan asap ikot badan sambil tgk oren susun batu dgn khusyuk.. try gak susun batu tu tapi x bole sbb x terrer… oren ni misteri skit, tp kreatif giler… respek arr kat dier… pastu nad ajak baby lombe selam, ingatkan nak selam camner… sekali tekup muke jer kat air, wakakakakaka… baik x yah…. oren kene geget pacat… aku kene gak tp x sempat pacat tu penetrate kulit aku dah cabut dier… sian nad jatuh kat jambatan gantung yg cam nak roboh tu… oren gayat sampai dah abis jambatan pon dier jln huyung hayang… huhuhuhuhu… pas mandi balik terus sbb nad nk gi jompe Opah… nad pon dah semakin pulih n yg paling penting ialah dier happy ngan kitorang… ske tgk kengkawan happy…  MMMMMUUUUAAAAHHHHHH, syg baby kiter…. syg nad gak… oren pon samer… ko sayang x kat aku oren? Oren allergik tgk perot aku, dier ghairah… wakakakaka..

P/s: Winduuu kat amsya… aritu dier majuk xnak dokong… rindu gak kat geng mentalianz….. mano ekau orang semuo nih…

Here’s a song that i will indulge into when i feel down, betrayed or saddened by sumthing or someone… I really hate this feeling… I hate being judged… I hate doing things that i dont wanna do… why am i always the victim? Why cant THEY think bout me? Bout how i fuckin feel…. I do have feelings like anybody else… Arrgghhh…. The pain Inside Is killing me….

Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

‘Cause it’s always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles
‘Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
‘Cause i can’t take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart

Cause it’s always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
‘Cause I talk to you like children
Though I don’t know how I feel
But I know I’ll do the right thing
If the right thing isn’t feel

Cause it’s always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

This Is A song from STAIND…. and the lyrics from their songs potrays how i feel… every single word….

Hmmmm… got lots of things going on here… got loads and loads of werk, dammnn im busy!   Miss ma boo a lot… miss her madly… huhuhuhuhu… She called me last nite crying, coz her belly button was bleeding, huhuhuhuhu funny little gurl.. so innocent yet naughty.. Tried to comfort her but she cried for a few minutes until i made jokes and she started laughing… felt really happy to hear her laugh, it was like steroid pumping through my veins… i really2 never loved someone like i loved her… we have small quarrels regularly but the feeling of love just grows deeper… i really like her… and she really likes me (i think?) Anyway, back to the other agendas of life; which is? Nothing… get wasted and die… the only thing u have to do in life is get as much money u can and do as many deeds…. huhuhuhuhuhu….