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  This is a tribute to ma homies, Mista Malique and ma bro Joe Flizzow… Still waiting for ur rebirth tho’… All tha thugs out there, beware… Kartello Hello!! A new breed of souljahs is on da move… Gilerr nyer aku minat kat too phat nih, nk kate aku poyo ker hape ker suke arr hati korang weiiii…. derang ni la yg telah memartabatkan scene hip hop mesia nih… aku ingat lagi zaman aku mude2 dulu, follow beb gig2 derang nih… mesti besh nyer… dulu2 lagu derang kinda funky feel, pastu start wat lagu luv/hatred yg bernas… dan skang nih kite tunggu jer album baru derang The Rebirth, ade 30 lagu beb… knape "30" lagu? Malique siap gi bertape kat Bali tu nk wat album nih.. lagu2 derang aku percaye akan lebih soulful and deep winded meanings… mesti food for soul arr… pasal kehidupan, kematian, kemunculan, kehilangan…. penderitaan dan kegembiraan… hmmmmm.. Weekend nih baby kene gi Ibadah Camp arr plak, x dpt spend time ngan dier…. bole aku gi usha2 harge brg keter nagn Nizam Beruang Polarlicious… nih Zaimtektronik mesti nk gi pasang alarm…. hmmmm… Jumaat mlm tu dgr citer ade photoshoot utk majalah Extreme, tp aku x dpt nk konfirm sbb webforum kelab aku downsyndrome…. nanti2 arr aku call bebudak tuh… leh bwk adik2 aku jalan2…. UUUwwwwwaaaaaaaa…… smlm umi masak sambal udang kegemaran aku, tp aku x dpt nk makan…. sedih giler… dh 2 minggu aku ngidam… umi cakap nanti sabtu dier nk masakkan…. huhuhuhuhu… manyak syokkk woooo….. smlm buke mkn kuih ngan minum jer dh kenyang…. pastu isap rokok…. pastu mandi…. pastu rents… pastu aizad ajak gi carik dvd game n ceriter… Transporter 2 besh siottt…. tp dvd rosak tgh jalan… and as assumed, semakin merepek skill2 dier.. skang mamat tu pakai audi A4 RS, rim 19…. pastu tgk citer lords of dogtown…. yg tu abess tgk… ok arr gak… pastu main game Mortal Kombat Shaolin Monk, bole main adventure 2 org…. besh gak arr gameplay and graphics, 7 out of ten arr aku kasi…."RINDU KAT BABY BUSYUK"…… balik keje nk layan movie arr sementare tunggu buke… huhuhuhuhuhu.. Mesti baby call nanti, huhuhuhuhuhu… Sian dier rindu kat kiter… dier rindu kat kakak dier gak tu… syian dierr… Tp xper, i ade kan baby, family i anggap u r a part of us already… kak nad awak pon syg awak… mmuuaaahhhh… Nad, kem salam kat kak cik ehh…. ckp kat dier stay tough, kitorang ader… nape dier x online dh? dh… keje bnyk nih… keje melambak2… gaji x berbaloi ngan keje… ok arr… bubbye…

Too Phat feat Siti Nurhaliza

Dua Dunia

Siti Nurhaliza
Kau selalu di hati
tak ku dekati
dua dunia kita berbeza (2x)

Mista Malique
Cinta itu buta
dan juga boleh membutakan
melukakan dan sukar untuk kita lupakan
Aku cinta padamu
(Aku cinta padamu)
hanyalah ungkapan
luahan yang jarang bermakna bila diucapkan
Ini pula cerita cinta sang pujangga
bukan arjuna sita
bukan cinta dan rangga
Mungkinkah khayalan akal mainan minda
Atau lamaran puitis
dengan hasrat yang indah
Kau selalu di hati
(Kau selalu di hati)
tidak ku dekati
sentiasa ada mata jahat yang memerhati
Tapi ku tak runsing
tidak mungkin rindu
ku pusing lihat wajahmu di setiap penjuru

Senyuman di kaca
kisah mu ku baca
Perjuangan kita sama duka mu ku rasa
(Perjuangan kita sama duka mu ku rasa)
Aku pasrah saja pada yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu (Kerna ku tahu dua dunia)
Dua dunia kita berbeza

*repeat Siti Nurhaliza verse

Too Phat
Suka di kala malam termimipi-mimpi
(termimipi-mimpi)
Rindu di kala siang mencari-cari
(mencari-cari)
Kasih sebenar tidak bertukar
tidak sebentar
walau dipisah lautan direnangi gelora
Dan kadangkala
hanyut bagaikan buah ara
malu sering bersua tapi jarang bersuara
Kenapa bercinta
jika kesudahannya pasrah
Kerana bila dilamun indahnya tidak terkata
Tersimpan hasrat
tiada siapa yang mengerti
Harapan menggunung sampai penghujung dinanti
Dipegangkan janji
tetap ratu di hati
Dengan izin tuhan kan bersama kapan hari pasti
Sabar menanti
Kesabaran diuji
Berdoa dalam sujud sejadah ditangisi
Aku pasrah saja pada yang Esa
Kerna ku tahu
Dua dunia kita berbeza

*repeat Siti Nurhaliza verse

Too Phat & Siti Nurhaliza
Perjuangan seni kita tidak berpenghujung
Jangan tinggal batu bernama tak berpengunjung

Joe Flizzow
Cabaran menikam
kau tidak pernah bermurung
Tetap tersenyum
walau kesedihan menyelubung
(walau kesedihan menyelubung)
Bukan rupa paras mu yang jadi ukuran
Atau suaramu yang jadi bahan tuturan
Ku bukan mahu hubungan tapi kejujuran
Hadiah sepatah dari mu satu kesyukuran
(sepatah dari mu satu kesyukuran)
Tapi bila bertentang mata
tidak terbentang kata
(Kata apa saja)
iya tapi tentang apa
(iya tapi tentang apa)
Wajah mu yang cantik
Manis lagi
Senyuman sepasti mentari timur tiap pagi
Realiti sukar diatasi
Tapi kesudahan indah harus bermula dengan fantasi
(Fantasi)
Ku rasa terhoyong-hayang
Antara dua dunia
(Antara dua dunia)
Biar khayalan ku melayang
(Biar khayalan ku melayang)

*repeat Siti Nurhaliza verse

  We meet again….. to avid readers thanx 4 ur support (2 org je kot yg slalu bace)… huhuhuhuhu… Hmmmmmm… Mmmuuaahhh, rindu kat baby kiter… syg dier…. rindu kat bebudak kelab…. naddylicious gurly murly, orengeleksi antartikus, pian e-ce-ke-ess, pikamerah a.k.a abg manje, ijaxx misteri, zax pria terhebat dan macam2 lagi kawan2 aku….. huhuhuhuhu… Zul Ayam… Mezzy… ramai arrr…. hmmmm… Ari sabtu gi shopping ngan Baby, penat gile nak mati tahap cipan…. gilerr arr… sehari suntuk jalan kat OU… kuar umah kol 10 pagi balik kol 12 lebih… buka puase ngan family kat MZ Kg Baru… tempat makanan kelantan… ayam percik ngan gulai kawah dier sedap…. huhuhuhuhu.. pas makan Umi ajak gi shopping plak, padahal kaki nk tetanggal nih… huhuhuhu.. gagahkan jugak sbb She is my MUMMY, I would do anything she wants…. Penat die bwk aku 9 bulan dlm perut… pastu lahir je menyosahkan…. huhuhuhuhu… RINDU KAT UMI…. mak aku hati baik… syg giler kt dier… peramah… Mlm tu gi sogo, die beli baju lawa2, huhuhuhuhu… pastu gi beli henbeg, sekali due daaaa dier beli, satu nk wat raye lg satu nk wat gi kedai… nk pakai hari2… pastu ngan wallet skali…. huhuhuhuhuhu… Dapat bonos baba aku kasik…. kat umah plak macam2 bapak aku beli…. Sofa baru n meja TV baru (Lorenzo), aku nk letak kaki atas sofa pon kene marah, wakakakaka… kapet ala2 anemonea (tmpt Nemo tinggal) kaler purple which compliments the walls…. pastu kotak2 cd ala2 accentric… ranting2 kayu kat ikea… rak basikal… ape tah lagik dier beli ngan mak aku… Bapak aku ske gi ikea, ade jer idea dier nk bikin rumah tu… syokk sb die ske DIY… rak2 stor aku sumer custom made by him, respek arr…. huhuhuhuhu… Kemabli kepada kisah "Babyku Gila Membeli Belah"…. abis dier borong… kalau boleh ngan parking2 tu skali dier nk beli…. huhuhuhuhu… ade satu baju seed ker padini tah… lawa giler, x sabar nk tgk die pakai…. sayang kat dier… huhuhuhuhu… die beli baju levis yg comel… pastu baju aper ekk B, yg london new york tu.. ade kepak angel kat blkg… hmmm… baju lawa x semestinya mahal… ade satu kedai tu, baju lawa2 x mahal pon… fabrik kualiti…. jeans dier pon lawa, baru 100 lebih skit… nanti aku tanyer busyuk aku… mesti nad nak gi kan nad… muuaahh… Jumpe DFLY ari tu… die tgh break kerje…. pastu jalan2 lagi… Beli CD Too Phat yg kaler silver tu… ori tau, mahal tapi puas!! Support Our Local Scene!! nih nak tunggu album baru derang kuar … aku ingat nak jadi rappers gak arr… nk join derang…. tp aku bole nyanyi ngan tulis lirik jer arr… huhuhuhuhuhu… ngan menari ala2 cipan keperitan…  huhuhuhu… HIPHOP Scene Malaysia semakin mantap..AKU SUKE SIOTTTT!!! Baby pon layan jer ape nak… baby belikan Belt Pouch Jansport, mahal nk mampos tp aku teringin sgt2….. so dier belikan… huhuhuhu… pastu dpt tshirt adidas 2 lai ngan Giordano selai… gio tu gamba mickey, kiut baby cakap… huhuhuhuhu… nk carik selipar leather plak pas nih… hmmmm… nanti nk gi jln lg ngan baby… nk belikan jam ngan perfume… Baby dh tau blom nk perfume ape? MMMUUUUUUAAAAHHHHHHH… dah, aku ade bnyk keje nih.. huhuhuhuhuhu

Uwwaaaaa….. sedih….. nak my mum gaks… nak bukak pose ngan baba… ngan abil… nagan ubayd… ngan doremon kenit… cedih… sayu… hiba…. Pagi2 bangun dah sedih… xde sape nk sahur.. sib baik ade Zaim, sahur ngan dier… makan roti cicah melo…. pastu isap rokok laju2… huhuhuhuhu… pastu titonn… semalam Johor cuti.. so bangun kol 11….. huhuhuhuhu.. amndi pastu main game… pastu tgk tv paastu tgk DVD… ehhh lame la plak nak buke nih… huuhuhuhuhu… Pastu gi pasar ramadan KG Melayu Majidee…. mak oiiii…. bnyknyer bende2 yg menggugat nafsu…. aku beli popiah, karipap, murtabak ngan air cendol…. buka puase kat umah bos… tu la first day puase aku…. Umi call ckp die buke kat umah nenek… intan plak kat Lumut…. sume jauh2…. Sian Baby gurl kiter…. lame x balik umah… sian dier rindu kat parents dier….. kat adik2 dier… sian dier…. xper, as long as she is by my side, i will treat her like a princess, my own princess…. love her lots…

Today time flew by very slowly i guess… really2 slow… hmmm… Im feeling down a bit, but with no cause…. Did a testi for my bud Oren a.k.a Acong.. a good one i assume… Did ma work today while listnin to song that was supposed to cheer me up…. huhuhuhuhu, but nothin happened… Miss my "Kakak" a lot, havent seen her from the day she was married… huhuhuhu… now can call her Makcik kot…. When am i getting married???? Gotta ask dat sweet lil’ girl i call Baby… she has a lot of plans for her future, and i pledge to support her every single step…. luv her vewy2 much…. huhuhuhuhu… Notty and spoilt lil’ gurl… Sayang awak tau kambingku yg boolat…. Spent the weekends with my family and friends…. Went to see my buddy Paan’s newly born daughters… cute little human beings… seriously their cute…. Twins… huhuhuhuhu… they were so small…. later went for teh tarik with my buds at NZ… nad, ash, oren, pyan,sue wadie n kak zila n baby amsha, zaxx n yanti…. we are like one big family i guess… we do really care bout each other… huhuhuhuhu…. hmmmm… my mind is blurred, donno what to write summore… last and not least, mmmuuuaaaahhhhh for my gurl…. p/s: Yeyeyeyeyeyeyeye… esok puase… dan x lame lagik raye….

Today is a boring day at work… everyday is a boring day… i am really interested in weekends only, coz i can see my BUCUK yg masam… huhuhuhuhu… rendoo plak arr kt dier…. Tp xnak ngaku rindu kat dier sbb nanti die ckp "Muke jer ganas, tp manje…" huhuhuhu… Weekend aritu gi air terjun ngan kakak hangkat baby, iaitu Nad… ngan mamat yg agak sempoi dan selamber badak dan happening dan pening dan macam2 adaaaa…. iaitu encik OoHRasaOren…  org yg first bwk aku lepak ngan bebudak Kenarianz.com… sumer bebudak kelab aku besh, sumer2 sporting and yg paling penting ikatan ukhuwah antare kitorang kuat.. memang besh arr kengkawan aku… aku rindu arr kat kawan2 aku yg dulu… bebudak kolej aku… budak sekola teknik songai petani 2… sek tmn melati and sek ren gombak satu… aku ade sorg kwn yg still sampai skang rapat ngan aku walaupon dh banyak kali gado/masam muke.. name dier Nizam… die lagik besau drpd aku yg sebesau beruang nih (mungkinkah dier ikan paus?)… huhuhuhuhu.. sambung balik mandi songai ngan oren nad and baby bucuk… besh giler!!! Baby sampai pucat giler sbb sejuk sgt air tu… tp baby mandi gak… aku mandi jap jer… pastu wat skill kuarkan asap ikot badan sambil tgk oren susun batu dgn khusyuk.. try gak susun batu tu tapi x bole sbb x terrer… oren ni misteri skit, tp kreatif giler… respek arr kat dier… pastu nad ajak baby lombe selam, ingatkan nak selam camner… sekali tekup muke jer kat air, wakakakakaka… baik x yah…. oren kene geget pacat… aku kene gak tp x sempat pacat tu penetrate kulit aku dah cabut dier… sian nad jatuh kat jambatan gantung yg cam nak roboh tu… oren gayat sampai dah abis jambatan pon dier jln huyung hayang… huhuhuhuhu… pas mandi balik terus sbb nad nk gi jompe Opah… nad pon dah semakin pulih n yg paling penting ialah dier happy ngan kitorang… ske tgk kengkawan happy…  MMMMMUUUUAAAAHHHHHH, syg baby kiter…. syg nad gak… oren pon samer… ko sayang x kat aku oren? Oren allergik tgk perot aku, dier ghairah… wakakakaka..

P/s: Winduuu kat amsya… aritu dier majuk xnak dokong… rindu gak kat geng mentalianz….. mano ekau orang semuo nih…

Here’s a song that i will indulge into when i feel down, betrayed or saddened by sumthing or someone… I really hate this feeling… I hate being judged… I hate doing things that i dont wanna do… why am i always the victim? Why cant THEY think bout me? Bout how i fuckin feel…. I do have feelings like anybody else… Arrgghhh…. The pain Inside Is killing me….

Your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

‘Cause it’s always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

So I speak to you in riddles
‘Cause my words get in my way
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
‘Cause i can’t take anymore of this
I wanna come apart
And dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart

Cause it’s always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention
Yet I always try to hide
‘Cause I talk to you like children
Though I don’t know how I feel
But I know I’ll do the right thing
If the right thing isn’t feel

Cause it’s always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said

This Is A song from STAIND…. and the lyrics from their songs potrays how i feel… every single word….

Hmmmm… got lots of things going on here… got loads and loads of werk, dammnn im busy!   Miss ma boo a lot… miss her madly… huhuhuhuhu… She called me last nite crying, coz her belly button was bleeding, huhuhuhuhu funny little gurl.. so innocent yet naughty.. Tried to comfort her but she cried for a few minutes until i made jokes and she started laughing… felt really happy to hear her laugh, it was like steroid pumping through my veins… i really2 never loved someone like i loved her… we have small quarrels regularly but the feeling of love just grows deeper… i really like her… and she really likes me (i think?) Anyway, back to the other agendas of life; which is? Nothing… get wasted and die… the only thing u have to do in life is get as much money u can and do as many deeds…. huhuhuhuhuhu….

Friends are like stars.. they are there when u need sumone to look up to… Been thinking bout my long lost friends actually… last week while i was in KL, we had a reunion! Imagine this, nearly all of my classmates from 6 Kenari who were lost approximately 10 years ago reunited… we had a lot of fun hanging out together.. leaning back to the past was a breeze… we updated each other with the latest gossips (although we are boys!) and what happened to who… Dammnn, we all grew bigger and more matured… then the next day we had a trip to Soccer XL to play futsal… Im still looking for my other long lost friends… A girl from 6 Bayan… And can u see the pic? Thats my fren when i was still in primary school, she was like a sister to me… along wif my fav pet sis Einisya who is still my fav pet sis since i was in std 2… Whoever knows dianne soliano please ask her to keep in touch with me… other than that… i really miss all my friends! Nothing can ever replace my friends! C’mon guys and gals, keep in touch with each other…

Just started to blog today! Need to understand it more… today got nothing to say…. but i feel down, dont know why but i feel down… hmmmm…. nvm… got lots of things to share…. but i’ll start tomorrow… Thats my heroes pic, saviour of all the teddies out there! Go Gloomy!!